Its really hard to understand right now why some things happen.
Today I was sitting with my amazing gynecologist and the bishop discussing next steps for napro when the doctor receives a call. Never in a millon years would I have imagined what would happen next.
Out of the blue he tells me:
its regarding your sister in law.
I look at him not understanding. He says:
she felt ill this afternoon.
I begin to worry, she is 11 weeks pregnant.
Then he takes the call and signals sadly that she miscarried.
Right there I sit with the bishop and my doctor and I begin to cry. All comes back to me.
I have just heard the confirmation from the U/S doctor that my nice/ nephew has died.
They had waited a long time until the doctors gave them permision to get pregnant. She had some medical issues that needed her to take medicines where a pregnancy would have been at risk. They followed all the doctors instructions for a long time and only until several doctors gave the go ahead to get pregnant they did.
This is their first baby.
Then the doctor receives another call. Its my own brother calling him for next steps. I hear what the doctor tells my brother and all the instructions to follow.
Such a hard Godincidence. I am hearing on the other side all the instructions my own brother is hearing. And feeling his pain.
My parents have now lost 4 grandchildren to miscarriage and have only 2 living ones.
My sister has 2 living children and 2 in heaven.
My brother one in heaven
Me one in heaven.
Why did this happen to a family that absolutely and completly adores children? what are the odds of this happening to one single family ?
My parents would make the best grandparents ever and we are asked to bear this cross.
If you can spare a prayer for all of us I would be very thankful. My sister in law will have a D&C tomorrow. Of all days Holy Thursday.
This brings so many painful memories for all of us. My whole family is grieving right now.