Today two posts really hit home. They were by TCIE and Jerusalmen my destiny! Both talk about doing too many things.
Just like me.
I am now home nursing a cold and really thinking things over. A cold that my body fought for a few days, but the battle has been won by the bug.
So right now what I need to do it rest and take it easy so I can win the battle. I do not want to take more medicines (my IF ones are enough!!!!) so I am going into a more natural cure mode: tons of water, rest and homeophatic remedies.
Normally my colds come at times of high stress or when I have been neglecting my health and I have been doing both.
Also in the last weeks the symptoms of hypothyroidsm have made a come back. With a vengance.
So my body is saying, screaming something is not quite right. That I need to make changes and fast.
I am very bad at putting limits, at concentrating at one thing at the time and at taking care of myself.
I am like the crabs in the story where they are put in a pot and they do not notice that the temperature is slowly rising until they are cooked.
I am exactly like a crab.
My Marthaness is my biggest spiritual weakness.
Tiredness, mild depression, being out of it. I know these hypo symptoms, because I lived with them for years before they were diagnosed. They were my personal H.ell.
Napro and Dr. H saved my life.
I do not wish them on anybody. Plus adrenal fatigue... A nightmare. It was not a life to be lived.
I have tasted health and I now crave it with all my being.
A comeback of sympotoms that was to be expected. My miscarriage and three hospital stays in three months really took a toll on my spirit and body, and I have been doing too many things at once after this. Yes, I went on vacation with my DH and a God sent retreat last week, but clearly I need to take care of myself during the rest of the time also.
Many of the books on hypothyroid and also adrenal fatigue explain the link between high stress and lifestyle and the symptoms. The books have really hit home that I need to manage the root causes rather than only the symptoms by getting the T3 and HC at the right doses.
Yet its so very difficult to say no to all these things which are good. I truly do not know how.
My full time job...
My practitioner program and practice...
Our calling to promote Napro so this exists here.
Our adoption process and the requests from the agency to support them in many of their activities.
YET right now its clear I need to focus on another job first and foremost: My health, so I can be a good wife, mother and worker for God.
My own health management both for hypo/adrenal and IF. My true job right now is to get back to healthy.
When I got pregnant my body was at its peak. I was meditating/praying, excercising, doing acupuncture, taking the medicines in the right order. Doing the program by Randi.ne lewis as well as Napro. It took many hours of my week, but it was great.
I was in balance and healthy. I have tasted health and once you taste it going back to hypo and adrenal fatigue is the worst nightmare ever. .
As promised by Ran.dine I got pregnant by doing these things, yet health on its own was its own miracle.
Yet now, a pregnancy would not be the main reason to do it. I need to do it so I can function and to be a good mother however God chooses. I am really at peace either way..
And I know deep within myself that here is no way I can take care of a baby in this condition.
I was really at the very best emotionally, physically and even spiritually and the cherry on the cake was my pregnancy.
I know that this path really works for balance, not only doing the western traditional medical stuff.
So..I am spending today resting and meditating on what God wants. Getting back on the health wagon and seeing which are the things that I can do right now and which not. Yet its so hard for this Martha.
Today I need to be Mary and put things in order.
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