Thursday, March 29, 2012

Ready for Holy Week and a very important month

I am so ready for Holy Week in more than one aspect.  Some rest, spiritual reflection, silence.  

Last 2 weeks  have been very difficult.   

 I was for  6 days in NYC, then came back to Mexico City  for 2 days and then  had to head back to San Francisco.  Every day that I traveled was  full of meetings and nights dinner with the team. 

Very little prayer time (other than my time in NYC at St Patricks my prayer life has been almost non existant)  and the reality of my new job combined. 

I am beat.

Josemaria stayed all this time with my parents and the days that were free with his dad (there was a long weekend here)   I actually moved all my travels so he would be able to be with his dad the most time, then with us both the weekend and with my parents the rest of the time.   

I am not only physically beat, but also beat because my trip was an eye opening experience and I need to brace for reality.  I saw a side of human nature that was not the best.  

In summary I have a higher position in the company than I knew (I just found out) which means more visibility and more responsability  (at a time where this is the last thing I want),   the coming months will be full of work until I find help (I need to hire a person and there are tons of requirements)  and I am really,  really in the minority in many aspects.   This last part is the hardest. 

I have always been the minority: in a very liberal school a practicing Catholic, in work a woman that wanted most of all a family, but what I saw was much more difficult than expected.     

The people that  mostly I will be working  in the USA with are highly political.  (the exception is  my boss and my team here which are very,  very nice)  their career is the focus  (family is not even on their radar), most (if not all) come from Ivy League education or from other companies where they were very succesful, they are highly,  highly comptetive  and they are very pampered at the company and most are young.   Its an explosive combination.

Too much success at a very early age with not always strong character.   

Also in my area  there is a very high percentage of people living very openly very liberal lifesyles..   (men "married"  to men, people sleeping around,   etc).  The percentage of this is much much higher than I have ever seen.  

I am still  in shock, but this is in part the reality of the world and we need to be out there where the fights are as lamps, but this does not mean its easy. 

So I am ready for Holy Week.   

To gain strenght for the next months until I have some help, to focus on what is really important,  to really pray, to gain perspective,  etc.   

Next month is also  very important for us. 

 Tomorrow we have the 6 months post adoption follow up (time has flown by).   We need to go to our agency and present tons of papers: baptism documents, medical records by Josemaria´s pediatrician, then a certificate  by an independant doctor and do an hour interview with the social worker and this will continue for the next 2 years.  A lot of work, but I am also so glad that the agency looks out so well for the babies in their care.  

 With this follow up and in just in 3 weeks on Josemaria´s 1st birthday  we can start  adoption proceedings again and by the time Josemaria is 2 we could be parents again (the law says you can only adopt again when all procedures in the prior adoption are perfect, but also only when the first baby turns 2).  

Its again a long road ahead, but we could be parents again and its so very,  very exciting and among all the work coming up I need to focus on this. .  

Also this month I turn 41 and I restart Napro testing to give TTC another chance for probably the last time in my life. 

So many things to focus on  and what better way than to start with intensive prayer time during  Holy Week.     


  1. It sure can be depressing out there. :(

    But I thank God that you are light and salt to a world which needs the witness of Christ so desperately!

    Praying for you!

  2. You are the salt, indeed. Hang in there. I do know of a few good Catholics that work for your Company in America. I can try to give you their names.

    Hang tight.

    All for JoseMaria! And, I pray as you restart up NAPRO and ttc...

  3. Don´t forget dear friend: "You are the light of the world. A city set on a mountain cannot be hidden. And they do not light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, so that it may shine to all who are in the house. So then, let your light shine in the sight of men, so that they may see your good works, and may glorify your Father, who is in heaven. Do not think that I have come to loosen the law or the prophets. I have not come to loosen, but to fulfill." You are in the right place. You will have the strength! Yo are not alone, cause we are praying for you. And remind that a dedicated work can be transformed in the best prayers ever! Te quiero mucho :)

  4. I agree with Leila! Keep fighting the good fight even if you feel alone.

    You have a lot to juggle right now! I hope Holy Week is healing and fruitful for you. :)

  5. Oh my goodness! Josemaria is going to be 1!!! So soon.. Time definitely flies. It's time you uploaded some new pics of your little one.. I am so happy that you are giving NaPro another chance. Praying for you.

  6. I can't believe he is almost 1! He is so beautiful too!

    What a tough position to be in but obviously you were put there for a reason....Set among the wolves.... ;) Work it girl!

  7. I hate that work can be so inhumane at times. I hate all that political garbage when work means more than relationships. Someone once told me that work would be great if it weren't for the people!

  8. Wow ... he is almost 1?!?!? Oh my gosh. Time flies.