Friday, December 10, 2010

Prayers please =(

Hi!

I need your prayers please for strenght. My poor prayer buddy is having a difficult case!

Since yesterday I have been having very, very heavy bleeding.

I had a very unsual cycle last time with a lot of variable return of peak type mucus, unusual bleeding and tons of PMS. My period started 2 days ago and yesterday I started to bleed a lot, much more than normal. I had to change pads every 2 hours or more and when I was unable I soaked right through them. I left marks on the car and in a restaurant. Horrible and embarrasing.

Since my miscarriage my cycles have gone from bad to horrible. I am so frustrated and sad.

Also I received results from all my blood work of my miscarriage: I do not have any recurrent miscarriage dangers (no factor Leiden, protein C, etc) which is great news, BUT my thyroid is again a mess. Below or way below most measurements even on medication.

I feel so utterly defeated.

This heavy bleeding has never happened to me. I called PPVI and they told me it was very limited what they could do for me long distance and if this continued to go to the ER this afternoon. I panicked.
They told me they would call back, but to be ready to speak with a local doctor ASAP.

Well it has since diminished to normal, but I feel horrible, very weak and dizzy.

I called my local amazing 83 year old Catholic ob/gyn, a saint, who told me that I will need to do an U/S on Monday to see if there are still a traces of my miscarriage. As I write this I cry, my heart breaks all over again.

I called my mom and started crying. My DH is on his way.

I do not have any strenght to go back to the same hospital where we received the news of the death of Miguel, where I had the D&C and where I had to stay 4 days due to horrible bleeding and complications.

Yet he told me its where they have the very best equipment to do the U/S and my prior tests. I will need to go.

And if they find again somehthing I do not know how I will bear it.

Why God?

All the feelings from my miscarriage have filled my heart once more. I cry like the day we were told the news.

10 comments:

  1. Oh, I'm so, so sorry! :( This must be so scary and heartbreaking. I'm praying for you!

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  2. Oh, no. I am so sorry. I will be praying for you, dear sister in Christ.

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  3. Thank you. thank you for your prayers. This weekend is the Feast of our Lady of Guadalupe so I know I will be under Her protection, yet its so very hard on a human level.

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  4. I'm so sorry, prayers go out to you!

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  5. Oh lovely woman! Please don't cry! So sorry you're going through this :(
    I will be praying for you! Seems like a rough week for so many. Sending hugs and prayers your way...

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  6. I am so sorry. Praying for you.

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  7. I am so sorry you are going through this. Prayers rare on their way to you.

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  8. Oh no, I am so sorry! I am praying so hard for you!

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  9. I am so sorry. May you be consoled and held in the bosom of our Blessed Mother as she pleads with her son for healing. Bl. Miguel Pro, pray for us!

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  10. I'm sorry and will definitely petition our Lord to give you strength. Your love and respect for the littlest life is such a beautiful gift. May you be comforted in your sorrow and find healing soon.

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